Tuesday, October 21, 2008

All those paper people living in their paper houses, burning the future to stay warm.

[my comment on a nerdfighter's facebook note]

I am in the same position (as much as two different people can be), and I sure as heck know what you're talking about. Everything is a system, a mold, everywhere, everything's enslaved by time, by deadlines, by concrete goals, by tradition. It's normalcy, status quo, don't-screw-up-or-try-anything-different, everything's-been-laid-out-and-that's-how-it-is-and-should-be mentality. It's so rigid.

Sometimes I just stop and think about what I'm doing, about where it'll get me, about what I'll be doing then, and so on. And it doesn't stop, there's no room for spontaneity, for being me, for ANYTHING. It just goes on, one thing leads to another, and another, and another, then at the end of it all, there's not much left, and what will I have accomplished? Will I be successful? What is success? It's all very subjective, and at the same time, it can't be, or the whole idea of success would be pretty much useless.

Sometimes I somewhat snap out of it, think that all of what I'm thinking now really doesn't matter, that I'm over-analyzing and over-thinking this all. But I can't tell, and I don't know. It's really strange, and when it happens, I feel almost two-faced. And then I only get more confused, and then I just stop thinking altogether and go on with my day, with my routine. And then I'm back where I started, which is not where I want to be. I think. I don't know. And that's the whole problem.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008


I've not said anything on here for a while, and I should, and I need to, so I am, but I am tired, and I have had one hour of sleep in the last 32 hours, so that's causing me to repeatedly mistype things, and also, I don't know what to say.

Oh. I, for some reason, uploaded all the blogtv screenshots I've taken over the last few months onto photobucket. I do not know why I did this. I felt like they were being completely useless just sitting in a folder in my pictures. So I put them online, where they will be just as useless, only they'll be online. Are online. Also I've taken to tagging each picture with the name of the show's broadcaster, so the one person who, 6 years from now, stumbles onto the page can sort them. Yet I left my American Cinema paper unwritten until the last minute. PRIORITIES!

I'm waiting on Amazon and Barnes and Noble to deliver me things. Most importantly, PAPER TOWNS WHICH COMES OUT IN TWO DAYS AND WHICH WILL BE AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND <3. And also More Information Than You Require and The Areas of My Expertise, both of which are by John Hodgman, the first of which does not come out until the 21st and the latter which is in paperback form. And I got Let It Snow by John Green and Maureen Johnson and some other lady. I do not remember her name. I will go look it up. It is Lauren Myracle. I don't remember how her name is pronounced. John said it in a live show, but I forgot. Ohhh John Green. I LOVE YOU.

Continuing with that, I've decided that I'm going to watch every single vlogbrothers video. In order, obviously, and also I will comment on each video. They have, as of now, 353 videos, so this will take a while. I don't have anything to do tomorrow. Assuming their videos are, on average, 3 minutes each, that would be 1059 minutes total, or 17.65 hours. I am also assuming that I did not mistake a minute to have 100 seconds. Unlike some people. Namely, JOHN.

Have I mentioned John? No. Yes. But not enough. The man is amazing. My gosh. He is an author. And a videoblogger. And an anagrammatist. And a fan of conjoined twins, and of last words, and of thinking, and of screened-in porches.

So I am going to watch the newest vlogbrothers video, in which John reads the prologue from his new novel, Paper Towns. This is a really awesome glimpse of the process of the evolution of ideas; way back last year, John read a rough draft of the very same prologue from the very same book, in very different form. I absolutely adore that we were able to see and listen to John every other day while this book was being written. I think it gives us an amazingly special position from which to read the book. And I love that.

I also love Hank.

Monday, October 6, 2008


Oh! Hey! I need to say something!

I have a new blog-type thing. Sort of an addendum. I can update it quicker, just to post things that I like/that are interesting/whatever. That's the point of it. Go look at it. It's pretty.

And it is a tumbleblog.

What is a tumbleblog? Wikipedia has the answer:
A tumblelog (also known as a tlog or tumblog) is a variation of a blog that favors short-form, mixed-media posts over the longer editorial posts frequently associated with blogging. Common post formats found on tumblelogs include links, photos, quotes, dialogues, and video. Unlike blogs, tumblelogs are frequently used to share the author's creations, discoveries, or experiences while providing little or no commentary.